viewpoint .....

something are hard to understand when being small ...that y restrictions tend to take over most of our life ....as being the necessary part of our life .....which is not the fact

therez nothing good in this world we can blindly trust on.......elders tend to restrict our lives on the basis of their own experiences ......but they tend limit the experiences or the chances that life gives us to learn

whatever i m going through now is my fruit , i sowed
i remember an incident .....
i m alone in my room......away from sunlight ..in the arms of dark....no one knew about my whereabouts
i closed up any contact with the outside world

my life tend to have delimited to a 4 faced wall .....place
i used to eat , sleep , study , look outside of the window to get my mind of her thoughts ......
i thought i was living my life normally with an exception that i had an experienced .

one day , something just turned my thoughts for a while...i was thinking about her .......while i was sitting next to the window in my room..........this usually tend to happen when i used to sit next to the window to focus on something other than her but end up involved in her and then crying......


a cute voice just hit the street ......when i looked out to enquire the abouts .......i saw a cute little girl
(about 6 months old ) watching down on the street through the spaces between those balcony boundary
grill

everything that used to happen in the street used to exite her ..........
standing next to her was her grandmother ........who used to keep an eye on the little girl
that used just be in her own world of happiness

roaming in the balcony or between the rooms adjacent to the balcony
her mother used to get her to the balcony and made her sit near her grandmother

it is so hard for her to see other play in the street but yet not be allowed to be one of them
its not her mistake but the thinking of her realtives that tend to rule her will

everyday she used to just see the others ......adding no good to her reality  ......


i tend to be just like her at this stage.........with my past acting like the grandma
keeping an eye on the girl ( bounded as i am feeling after she left me )
tending to change the future which awaits in the street ..........

i just think one day she ll be able to step down and harden her wishes to break the doors that stop her and tend to give way to what she wants .......

she gives me confident way to see the light in the dark.....and belief that time has the power to change evrything ......if u got time then let time heal u .....coz therz no perfect doctor than time
:)